Strange

Having listened to my reading of several yrs ago and having Paul come back into my life, yes, strange indeed.:)

I do on occasion talk to those that aren't here anymore! anyway after blubbing somewhat after listening to the tape I got my stuff together and went to the gym where in whilst staring into middle space I realised I was constantly rubbing my finger with my thumb( the one you put those rings on, the one that say you do !) at this point I could feel Paul chuckling that he was my husband in spirit, not sure how that stands but he did make me laugh ,inwardly of course would look a tad strange on a tread mill laughing at seemingly nothing.

Serendipity, love that word has to be amongst my most fav that's 4 sure, but anyway that's what brought me to listening to the tape again and to getting my kick up the arse and chastisement as to my having allowed myself to act like an absolute arse, of all things to excel in why of why does it have to be this..

So where from here then, at my latest reading i was told I had the teaching square !! ok been told this many times before but what does one teach ! I have no idea, or to go back and study, but what, I'd wanted to go into law to be a Barrister but life has its ways of changing things, my life simply went down a different path, kids, mortgage and school fees etc have a way of taking up your time especially when your on your own with no help.. But hey I'm a strong independent cookie cos of it all, but, and isn't there always one....

So what do I do now I'm very unsatisfied and not entirely sure I have the balls to make the changes, something has to change though that's for sure, cos I'm wasting my life right now...