Work

I think if I had the money I'd go on a retreat try to find myself, once through a vision I saw myself reflected as a tree half was white and half black could have been balance but to be honest I feel like it was pointing out that I needed to bring more light into the darkness of my life. Strange as it sounds I find that so difficult to do I know what to do but it’s almost like that negative part of me enjoys its existence too much and I don’t really want to be all light although again it is there, I always know the right thing to do, I just don’t do it, I don’t understand it at all, what is it I'm afraid of ? being vulnerable well did that one recently and got a kick up the arse and survived. What is it that I'm afraid of, I ask that the information be made available to me so that I can release this block.... It probably is being made so but like anything we need to be observant and I think Mr London has given me some new insights.. Now though I'm ready for more challenges, not sure I should  have said that ! please let them be tempered with some joy !!
Actually why am I complaining I am so very fortunate
Maybe the reflection of the tree is the state of all humanity, capable of such amazing selfless acts, capable of giving, caring, loving, but it also is capable of the opposite and I guess until we can as is said love they neighbour we won’t be able to transform our lives and that of all who partake in this existence be it the smallest insect to the planet itself.